Thank you for listening to me! Thank you for being so encouraging. I hope we can meet again.

Thanks for the awesome brownies

In my depravity and sin, You came. In my unfaithfulness, You remain faithful. In my hate, You loved.

*headdesk*
*headdesk*
*headdesk*
You know...this whole college band thing is really starting to tick me off. Gosh, it's so much fun, but some of the policies are absolutely ridiculous. I mean, really. I don't give a darn what the athletic department says. They're not the ones who gave me the scholarship, so why should I care what they say? They are seriously about to get an email from me. Them and the music department higher-ups.

You're starting to hurt my feelings, babe...
I don't know what's wrong. This week hasn't been good for us...and that stings because we're so close to our one year. As in two days from now... one minute you're so fun and cute and the next you just are mad at me and the world. If you think you're better off without me, then I guess that'd explain it.
I'm not perfect, babe. No one is. I aspire to be, I work my butt off to be, but it seems like I always mess something up. I want to re-capture last week. I really wish I were the girl you deserve...but how on earth do I get there? What do you want from me? Why am I not apparently enough for you?


CTF:
I'm about to reply to your text It made me SO HAPPY. I needed that and it made me smile so big.

I need to post here more often. u.u

1. Why didn't You come for me?? I needed You so bad....and you never came. I cried my heart out to You. So where were You when I needed You most?? I've been asking this so long and I want to know the answer so bad it hurts. Not only me, but people around me. The ones that I love, that love me. Because of my hurt, I'm hurting them.

2. Hey, your hott. Are you single?? Why, thank you. Your not that bad-lookin' yourself.

3. I love you. I always have. I never told you because I did't now if you felt the same way towards me.....

4. Why did you do that?? What'd you do it for??

5. *A girl my age hits me. Hard. I hit back. She starts cryin'* Don't hit if you don't wanna get hit back.

6. How could you hurt an inocent person like that?? You hurt them beyond words and it left a big scar behind. I just....don't understand people like you.

7. I'm sorry I hurt your feelings. But do u honestly know how hard it is to understand a guy??? Its pretty darn hard lol.

8. OMG!!! YOU DON'T LIKE NICKELBACK?!?!?!? WHATS WRONG WITH YOU?!?!?! lol jk

9. What I listen to doesn't affect how I act. Just like what we do doesn't change God's love for us.

10. I needed someone to talk to, to poor out to. And you were there. you listened to me and didn't judge me. I can't explain in words how thankful I am....

Oh, how He loves. <3

By the way, I don't think you know just how much talking to you yesterday helped. I took something you said and wrote it on my wall! I think you'd be honored if you knew it was actually YOU that I wrote on there. But ever since you said that, I've had so much more peace. I'm so glad you said what you did when you did. Even if I'm not on Skype to talk all the time!

You swooned! That was the sweetest thing I ever did see.

"But my recovery cannot spring from any cause in me,
I can destroy but not save myself.
Yet thou hast laid help on One that is mighty,
for there is mercy with thee,
and exceeding riches in thy kindness through Jesus.
May I always feel my need of Him.
Let thy restored joy be my strength;
May it keep me from lusting after the world,
bear up heart and mind in loss of comforts,
enliven me in the valley of death,
work in me the image of the heavenly..."

I'm just going to smile like everything's okay. Because if she makes you happy, I'm happy.

I HATE HAVING A ROOMMATE! >:O
That is all.

lololol even from half way across teh country you find ways to keep me entertained. I loves you meow.


Against her, words are meaningless. She won't let them reach her, and then...they die.
Sort of made me want to cry. It took everything I had to hold back the tears. ---

Resistance is futile. LuLz.

This post has been edited by Techno Panda: Today, 03:30 AM

I understand you like him, he likes you, and that's all good. Great even, for you. However, when you're with us, seriously, boundaries please? That closeness was just soo *nauseating feeling setting in*. When you're on your own with the dude, fine, do whatever you want. But sheesh, a little discretion would be appreciated.

19 more days. *sigh* Suddenly it feels like someone clicked the slow motion button. December just can't come fast enough.