This past halloween opened my eyes to what I was doing with myself after graduating from high school. I had been partying excessively, started drinking, and then when I had stopped, I did ecstacy. Halloween night started off well. I wasn't under the influence of anything until I took that pill. An hour and a half later it hit me and I started feeling nauseous. I started gagging. I drank alot of water and I even went outside to feel better a few times. Later on in the night, for about two hours, I was starting to vomit even more and more. I felt so sick. I had to call my big brother to come and get me because I felt so horrible. I told him everything an he was mad. But he said that he was happy that I didn't die or nothing worse happened. I felt worse after his lecture. Needless to say I did not sleep at all that night. The morning came and he made me get up for church. At church I prayed to God for forgiveness. I prayed so hard. I cried and cried because I knew that I shouldn't have been doing things like that. I have a future and plans ahead of me. And I have younger siblings that I should be role models for. I've realized my faults. And I need God to put me back on His path. I thank Him for all He has done for me already and I look forward to brighter days.

It is great that you are recovering! It will also help now that your brother knows. If you can try to find a mentor, to help support you. I was going through some things when I graduated highschool. Having a mentor who could encourage me in my faith, really helped me overcome those things I was struggling with.