This past halloween opened my eyes to what I was doing with myself after graduating from high school. I had been partying excessively, started drinking, and then when I had stopped, I did ecstacy. Halloween night started off well. I wasn't under the influence of anything until I took that pill. An hour and a half later it hit me and I started feeling nauseous. I started gagging. I drank alot of water and I even went outside to feel better a few times. Later on in the night, for about two hours, I was starting to vomit even more and more. I felt so sick. I had to call my big brother to come and get me because I felt so horrible. I told him everything an he was mad. But he said that he was happy that I didn't die or nothing worse happened. I felt worse after his lecture. Needless to say I did not sleep at all that night. The morning came and he made me get up for church. At church I prayed to God for forgiveness. I prayed so hard. I cried and cried because I knew that I shouldn't have been doing things like that. I have a future and plans ahead of me. And I have younger siblings that I should be role models for. I've realized my faults. And I need God to put me back on His path. I thank Him for all He has done for me already and I look forward to brighter days.

I'm glad that you repented. Read my testimony, it will further encourage you.

It is great that you are recovering! It will also help now that your brother knows. If you can try to find a mentor, to help support you. I was going through some things when I graduated highschool. Having a mentor who could encourage me in my faith, really helped me overcome those things I was struggling with.