Okay, here's the thing. I've been taking these pills for my depression. They seem to make me appear happier, but all they do is drown my heart with unshed tears. It hurts whether I take the pills are not and I don't understand why! I don't see if it has to do with me or what. do any of you have that issue?

I take anti-depressants too. If I miss just one day I can't even go to school because I can't stop crying.

Here's what I figured out. True joy comes from Jesus. I can take anti-depressants everyday for the rest of my life, but if I didn't know Jesus as my Savior and love Him, I would never be happy.

Anti-depressants don't make you happy they just keep you from being sad.

I understand. my prob is that my heart and soul feel tortured to the breaking point. like I'm being drowned and burned at the same time! i'm trapped in a battle that is neither winning or losing.

I to suffer from depression and anxiety and I take medicine as well. If the dose is too high and making you feel worse I would call your psychiatrist ASAP and tell them what is going on and they can adjust your dose or give you something that is of a lower dose.

thanks, all of you. I don't have one. I was given these pills by my doctor. The med is called Lexapro if thta helps. My mom actually wants the dosage to be increased to see if that might deaden the pain! I don't want to be diagnosed as depressedl, but I may have ot go that far. I just hate this feeling.

I would definitely look into getting a psychiatrist to talk to. Temporary happy pills aren't going to help much when there isn't someone to get to the root of the problem. I know a girl who almost commited suicide because her anti depressants kind of had the opposite effect, so it's really not something you should overlook.

thing is that I can't and I don't think I need one. idk.

Talk to someone about it. You're always biased when you are talking about yourself. Happens with relationships, health problems, etc. Find someone you really trust (someone mature enough to take you seriously), someone that really cares about you, and talk to them. Someone who knows you well is great too. That's probably a must. They should know you well enough to make a good judgment about what to do. They'll care about you enough to know if something is seriously wrong, and they'll tell you straight up. I know I would do that with any of my friends.

Most importantly, go to God. I know it sounds old and overused, and it may take a while before you feel like it's helping, but if you walk with the Lord, and give your depression and your inadequacy to fix the depression, He will take care of you. Faith is a big one here.

God Bless hon.

I advise you to get off the medicine. Well, first I`d advise you to never set foot in a psychiatrist`s office, as you may be diagnosed with other conditions you don`t have and they may up your doses on Lexapro. Many anti-depressants also increase suicidal thoughts, especially in teens.

I am not a doctor of course, I only base this on 9 years of being drugged up by doctors for conditions I never had and will physically suffer the effects from them throughout the rest of my life (kidney damage, liver damage, hypothyroidism, infertility and decreased vision).

"Mental health" is nothing but a business.

This post has been edited by Rave87: Oct 29 2009, 03:47 AM

Yeah I took some drugs as well, to get rid of stress and that. Legal and Illegal. None of them worked on me is what I can tell you. While it may work on some, it may not work on others. NEVER try illegal drugs.
Asking for a higher dose will cause you to be dependent on the drugs and might make you feel worse mentally and physically. Get help through counseling if you find that anti-depressants don't work.

Actually, I would prefer if you went to see a trusted source rather than an teenage internet forum.

I disagree psychiatrists can be helpful in certain situations and not all psychiatrists want to drug you up with every drug on the market. It's the same with doctors you get your good and bad doctors I saw a psychiatrist last year who was terrible, but then I switched to one in my hometown and he has been great with treating my ADHD and anxiety.While the OP may have other underlying medical conditions if she is feeling depressed or suicidal the best thing OP can do is to get professional help .

It's all trial and error when it comes to finding the right doctor, but if someone has a true mental illness it doesn't just go away so seeking out professional help through counseling, a psychiatrist, etc. is their best bet for getting some kind of help I am not saying anti depressants are the answer but if someone is struggling with severe depression or suicide seeing a professional for help is the best thing they can do.

OP if you feel your psychiatrist isn't doing a good job I would try to seek out a professional counselor as well or switch to a new psychiatrist all together.

This post has been edited by Glamour_Dollxoxo: Oct 29 2009, 11:58 AM

My prob is that those I trust are few and very busy. I have talked to them, and I'm feeling better. I just wish I could shake this feeling. thanks for talking to me. i know I'm a stranger and all, and I apreciate it. helps me not to fel so alone.

You are not alone I am dealing with the same thing right now except mine is more anxiety but it makes everyday living hard and its not just a feeling that you can magically shake or make go away. Hopefully getting your doses adjusted will help you feel better because medicine is trial and error sometimes and what works for someone might not work for someone else. You will feel better in time don't give up!

Sometimes when something (like depression) hurts and confuses you more than words can say, it is just hard to believe that there is anyone else who can really empathise.

I'm not on anti-depressants and I haven't been to see a counsellor for the following personal reasons:

1) I once told a Christian doctor about problems that were depressing me; I was shocked when he suggested an ungodly way to deal with my problems. I decided then that I would trust only close Christian friends/relatives to counsel me, for it says in Psalm 1:1 "Blessed is the man that walketh not in the counsel of the ungodly". I am at an advantage to some though because my Nanna was a couselor in her natural health clinic.

2) I personally know counsellors (not my Nanna!) who can't get their own lives in order, despite having a piece of paper that says they are qualified to get mine back on track.

I have never had it suggested to me to take anti-depressants but I don't want to take them anyway as to my understanding they don't solve the problems but mask them. I agree with Firefly: go to your heavenly Father; when Jesus was in agony in the garden of Gethsemane, He prayed continually and was strengthened. Forgive me for not recalling the chapter or verse but I think it is in the book of Isaiah that Jesus is called 'wonderful cousellor'.

One last thing, Bladebearer, and it is something I am guilty of and it does nothing to help: don't isolate yourself. DO talk to someone and if you know a doctor or councelor you trust to give you sound, godly help, go to them. If I found a good doctor I would probable ask their help. The reason though, that I tend to avoid outside help is that I know what causes my depression: spiritual disobedience. I'm quite stubborn and selfish (please don't shun me for it) and this gets between me and God so then I feel like a really bad person and this makes me depressed and then I get angry at God and that just makes me feel even more evil...and so it goes on in a vicious circle.

So here are three things that I am going to try to do as part of my recovery: Pray (about it), Talk (about it), Trust (in my Father's Almighty Love)

All things work for the good of them that love God; who knows who may one day benefit from our experiences of depression and say : "I'm so thankful you understand".

Love to all you fellow Sisters-in-Christ Hang in there! for our God has promised: "I will never leave thee nor forsake thee." Hebrews 13:5

I have yet to meet a good-intentioned psychiatrist after all these years and switching from doctor to doctor. If they only go by the DSM-IV, the psychologist/psychiatrist Bible (which the vast majority of them do), then I advise her to get away from those people.
I`ve been through too much for you or anyone else to change my mind on this.

This post has been edited by Rave87: Oct 29 2009, 06:04 PM

i'm kinda isolated where I am. the only way i can get connected to others is by computer. even my best friend (and crush) and I talk more by computer than in person. I want to make friends and get better, but I'm home all the time because it's my place. it's been my place for almost 8 years. I talk more in type than in voice.

my emotions are attacking me again. i feel like i'm locked in a battle like my stories. it hurts.

*hugs* x 5000

emotions are volatile by their very nature.
i give you a challenge: make a list of 10 things you are thankful for every day be creative.

thanks.
I'll try that. I've been doing something like that between college and watching sibs. I write about my feelings and such.

In my Bible class (which doubles as a life strategies class essentially) they gave us this advice.

basically, that the scientifically proven way to affect your emotions is to verbalize them. Talk faith, and you'll have more faith. Talk about depression, it will grow. Talk about things that make you joyful, or things you're thankful for, and your joy and thankfulness will grow.

i would agree with my bud opalecent. and i think taking pills can be neccessary but you're only gonna get healthier if you're able to talk about whats bothering you and grab a hold of it. pills aren't everything and sometimes talking isn't everything either. sometimes it's both. plus relying on god. i mean, what's really bothering you? just your feelings? or is there something really wrong? it could be just your chemicals, or you might need someone to talk to you and figure out whats going on. and professional counseling is totally different than just talking with a friend or family. in a good way. in my experience.

i got professional christian counseling one on one and i ended up not needing pills but i found out severals problems in my life that i didn't even realize were hurting me. i didn't even need it really- it wasn't so bad, but it still made my life better. family issues are sneaky lil fricks.

thanks, guys.

My problem is getting worse. My feelings have been hitting back harder. also, a side effect of the medication is nightmares. guess wgat I've been having. i just don't get this at all. i feel real alone. i don't get to see the doc for another week, but one more night of dreaming these dreams and I've had it!

I would definitely go see a physician. I know when I took antidepressants, I had terrible vivid nightmares and had to be taken off them. I think you should discuss lowering the amount you consume, or being taken off the medication completely. I hope things work out for you. You're in my prayers.
~Dee