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  1. StarredThought

    That guy you just cant get off your mind

    I went a long time without having a crush, and I knew this guy for a while before I actually fell for him, and when I did, I fell so hard I metaphorically broke...probably several bones. We were both head drum majors of our respective marching bands at different schools, and we met as juniors, and connected because we were the junior drum majors. We got to know each other, and then I went to see him in his school's production of Pride and Prejudice, with him as Mr. Darcy. That night, whenever I saw him I felt my heart speed up, and afterward, I was so happy to get a picture with him and get to talk to him. Since I'm a senior, I was like "I need to jump on this opportunity" so I wrote him a love letter. I was convinced that even if he had a boyfriend, he was at least bisexual. I was wrong. Since then I haven't met a guy that was as great as him, even if after the letter, he never really spoke to me again...
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    Keeping A Faith Journal

    I haven't kept a journal in years, and one of my resolutions I made to myself this year was to read the Bible in one year. I have a schedule that will allow me to finish it, and I'm in 2 Chronicles! I'm also keeping a journal to keep track of my faith journey. I am already looking back at it. At the beginning of the year, when I was first trying to rediscover my faith, I seemed to pick up so many little details and ask so many questions about the Bible. Now, it seems like a chore to read, and I hate that. Does anyone here keep a faith journal? How can I keep from getting bored?
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    When verses show up at the perfect time

    Wow! That's really good! I need to write that one down!
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    When verses show up at the perfect time

    Have you ever had a moment where you read a Bible verse and you think "Oh my gosh this is too perfect" and it's almost like it was scripted? For example, I had just finished a test and I was not confident about how I did at all. Afterward I pulled out my iPod and looked at my morning meditation on my Living Word app and Romans 15:13 came up "Now may the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit" And I had to laugh to myself, because it took my predicament and wrapped it all up in shiny wrapping paper, and I was suddenly at ease. Has this ever happened to you?
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    How to Deepen My Faith

    Thank you for the guidance! I will certainly work on keeping a schedule. One of my resolutions is to read the Bible in a year, and I printed out a schedule to do just that. I will continue to pray, but I'm just a little confused on how the two way prayer works. I don't know how God will "talk" to me. Is it different in everyone?
  6. There hasn't been just one instance where I've had a witnessing moment. I'll begin with the least recent, at least in my recent history. A few years ago, I traveled to Europe with an ambassador group. As excited as I was, that meant that I couldn't attend church camp with my youth group, and I was severely upset. However, the camp has several "conferences" which are just different groups of churches that go at different times. I was able to sign up for a different conference. When I got there, I knew nobody, and the people I did meet, I didn't really connect with. They had their own groups of friends, or they were simply more outgoing than I was and had the ability to talk to people. I felt dreadfully alone all week. It got better once we got into classes and I felt that I had a voice though. I was in a dance club there, and we performed at our worship services, including the most powerful one at the end of the week. I felt so free, and I told myself after the performance that I was so nervous that I forgot to cry. I felt the Spirit in me that night, and after our performance, we wrote letters to ourselves that we would receive months later. My hand was still shaking as I wrote out my testimony, and the night wasn't even over yet. At the very end of the night, we had a closing circle, and for the first time all week, I felt truly included. There is no way, other than through God, that so many different people could be so nice to each other. I left the camp feeling renewed, but then real life kicked in. A few months later, our youth group had their annual winter retreat. I go to a different school than 98% of the people in my youth group, and I was the only one at the time that went to that school. Because of that, I wasn't as connected as I should be to my youth group. During freetime at the retreat, I stayed in my room, but then I decided to talk a walk, in the woods. I put on a song that I danced to at camp called "If You're Out There" and when I arrived at a cross in the woods, I broke down sobbing because for some reason, I didn't feel alone anymore. It was an amazing feeling, and when I went back to the retreat house, one of my teachers greeted me and told me that I should just get into a group and play a game. They won't mind. I told this testimony at our worship service, and everyone said that they didn't want me to feel that way, and I felt happy, truly happy for one of the first times in the group. But then we went back to church, and everything went back to how it had been before. Then we had our Christmas ever service this year. It was a tumultuous year, with the beginning of my senior year, the marching band I lead losing it's "superior" status, and the beginning of the college process. I'd also gotten my first job, working at JCPenney. Too bad Christmas Eve was my last day working there because I'd gotten laid off. I was pretty discouraged, and didn't even went to go to church, but I wanted to feel like it was Christmas, so I went. At first, I just went through the motions like I always did, but during the sermon, I felt something. My pastor was saying that faith doesn't need words sometimes. I realized that sometimes faith didn't have to make total sense (which sometimes throws me because I'm a person that has to know why something is). Then we watched the clip of "A Random Act of Culture" when an entire Macy's store sang the Hallelujah Chorus with an opera group, right in the middle of the store. My pastor said that they probably didn't know why they did it, they just did. I went home enlightened, and for the first time, Christmas wasn't about the gifts, it was about something more. Since then I've purchased a Bible, which is good because I can't find my other one... and I've been praying every night. I want to keep this faith going because I know I'll be moving out soon and I'll need a guide and someone to keep me on track. It's going to be a new year, and this is a resolution I am going to keep!
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    CTF Official Favorite Bible Verse/Story Thread

    1 Timothy 4:12 Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believes in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity
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    How to Deepen My Faith

    I'm a senior in high school, so I'm almost at the point where I need to go out on my own in the world. I've been ready to leave for a while now, but I know that I'll need a guide for the big and small things to keep me on track. I haven't been the strongest in my faith, but I really want to change that. I got a new Bible, and I've been praying more, but I still feel like I'm not doing something right. I don't know how to "listen" to God, instead of just talk to him. I'm not sure how to read the Bible, and I can't even pull quotes out of thinner books, let alone one that can have 1000 pages and 66 books. I want to make my relationship with God something I try to strengthen, and I'm willing to put time aside every day for it, but I'm just not sure exactly how. How do you keep your relationship with God strong?