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laurdvm2b

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About laurdvm2b

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  • Birthday 11/27/1994

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  • Biography
    Like most Christian teens of today I struggle with the secular world. I have come far and still working through my struggles.
    I am a sophomore in college and the age of seventeen. I have a horse who I rescued in May of 2012. I love animals and kids. I aspire to have my own theraputic riding center one day in the future for those suffering with mental disabilities and diseases.
  • Location
    United States
  • Interests
    Horses
    Volunteering
    Working
  • Occupation
    Stable Hand. Tack Store Associate. Nanny
  • Denomination
    Not sure... Family is considered Baptist.
  • Name
    Lauren
  1. laurdvm2b

    Stuck

    I have had God calling me for such a long time... I am a born again Christian and have had my flight of struggles. After I became rededicated and found my passion for Jesus again, I felt the calling... He wants me out there in the field. Preaching his word and spreading it wherever I am willing to go. However, I am stuck. I am about to graduate in May with my Associates degree, I work over 40 hours a week and have a horse whom I own and solely support financially. This is where I am stuck. Obviously the work I am being called to do will not cover my equine related bills and at the same time it wouldn't be fair to keep her if I did go away, especially for long periods of time. I just love her so much... But I love God more, and he is worth more than any material item I could ever have... I just am afraid I would make the wrong decision and read into my feelings and it not really be a calling.
  2. laurdvm2b

    love waits ring question?

    Ok, so my eighteenth birthday is coming up on the 27th and I asked for a purity ring with simply the words love waits. I have lost my virginity however I rededicated myself to God and am now guarding my heart and saving myself for marriage. I want it as a symbol of rededication. I was told I can't do that since I am no longer a virgin and it is a lie... I don't feel that way. I won't say its a purity ring in the sense of me still being a virgin. It is a rededication ring and a personal reminder. Nothing to do with anyone else. Thoughts?
  3. laurdvm2b

    Would you Believe me if I told you..?

    yes would you believe me if i said i was 17 and a junior in college?
  4. laurdvm2b

    Boy Problems.

    You need to get the youth pastor involved or even have your dad talk to him. I happened to be raped in January and it started with stupid things like this. And I informed the guy it wasn't cool and we were just friends. He was a best friend of mine until I gave him too much trust. And yea.... I told my dad and he went to his house and talked to him and his father. I haven't spoke to the guy since but honestly, I have no desire to. Good luck I hope he keeps his hands off
  5. So lately I have realized I kinda threw my self respect and self love out the window. I don't even know who I am now. I have gone through alot of things in my life and now I am at the point where feeling loved, wanted and desired is something I crave... I ended up giving up my virginity in August of 2010 and I haven't been the same person since. Since then I have had sexual relations with 8 men and even 1 woman and even worse, a 42 year-old man... I have been self hating and am completely disgusted myself. I have turned my sin over to God but cannot seem to forgive myself. I feel that now I have just thrown myself away and will forever be someone who is easy to anyone who can for one second make me feel loved. When someone called me up and said based on my reputation they figured they would give me a call.... i just lost it. I even once was offered money.... I cannot live my life like this. I don't want to. It doesn't help that I cannot find a guy who wants to wait either. I know I do not need a boyfriend and I have been working on my bond with God. My downfall is those I have had relations in the past coming back and looking for it... It becomes a battle and I am not one to easily say no... I need some help and loving advice. I completely hate myself and am ashamed. I do not know how I can be appealing now to the kind of guy I want to attract....
  6. So lately I have realized I kinda threw my self respect and self love out the window. I have gone through alot of things in my life and now I am at the point where feeling loved, wanted and desired is something I crave... I ended up giving up my virginity in August of 2010 and I haven't been the same person since. Since then I have had sexual relations with 8 men and even 1 woman and even worse, a 42 year-old man... I have been self hating and am completely disgusted myself. I have turned my sin over to God but cannot seem to forgive myself. I feel that now I have just thrown myself away and will forever be someone who is easy to anyone who can for one second make me feel loved. When someone called me up and said based on my reputation they figured they would give me a call.... i just lost it. I even once was offered money.... I cannot live my life like this. I don't want to. It doesn't help that I cannot find a guy who wants to wait either. I know I do not need a boyfriend and I have been working on my bond with God. My downfall is those I have had relations in the past coming back and looking for it... It becomes a battle and I am not one to easily say no... I need some help and loving advice. I completely hate myself and am ashamed.
  7. laurdvm2b

    I don't wanna talk about this with my Mom.

    My honest opinion is to try to pull him aside and talk to him about it when you get a chance. However, from experience it seems that there is a possibility of him potentially being with another girl? Idk. I cannot be sure but I know guys have avoided me in order to not upset me. Good luck with everything though.
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