So I am leaving for college on Saturday and I decided to hang out with one of my best friends before I go she is also my best friends gf. My best friend had football so he couldn't come along. Me and her hung out and had a good time up until I did something so stupid and wrong. We were just chilling in my car and then for whatever reason I made a move on her. It is dumb because I love my best friend more than anyone n this world and his gf and I were super close I helped lead her to Christ I have helped her through a lot and she has helped me. But she's very attractive and I guess I got caught up n that, I made a move (I put my hand on her leg and said something like let me rub your legs I know there sore) she said no I didn't touch her after that but I kept talking about how let's just cuddle and let me give u a massage and the context was sexual. Then she asked me to take her home I started to but then pulled over and said something like its not that bad I just want to do a little bit of stuff nothing to bad at that point I realized I was really scaring her so I took her home. I apologized to her over the phone as soon as I got home myself then I quickly met my best friend after his practice and told him what I did we hugged it out and I said I was sorry repeatedly and he said he forgives me I asked him if he still wanted to be close and he said u hurt me but I still love u just don't do it again and he said ate relationship used to be a 10 and now its a 7.5 but that he wants it to get back where it was. Then I apologized again this morning to his gf thru text she says she forgives me but doesn't think we can b friends, and I hate it cuz I want to go back and not b an idiot I want my relationships to heal and I am leaving and afraid that they will both hate me. I want her to trust me like before she used to trust me with everything but how can she after putting her in that situation. I honestly don't think I would have done anything had she been willing. but what I did was so wrong to put her n that situation. Those are my two best friends and in ten minutes time I ruined my life. I just want to die I would never kill myself but I have thought about it. I just want things to go back the way they were.