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Wulpez

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About Wulpez

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  • Birthday 08/15/2001

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  • Biography
    My old biography was really dumb, so I'm changing it. I'm a young adult who has moderate political views, who is interested in studying the faith, and I tend to try and act modestly. I've been told I'm intelligent, and a great writer, and all these silly things, but doesn't everyone get compliments? My hobbies are games(Board or especially Video Games), Writing, Creative-Writing, Roleplaying, Reading, Healthy Debate/Discussion, and if given the inspiration, Exercise and Outdoor Play. Oh, I also like martial arts.
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    United States, OR, Springfield
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    Video games, board games, writing, history, reading, studying Faith, HEMA/Martial Arts, politics, roleplaying, and a few other things I'm probably forgetting
  • Occupation
    Unemployed, but I'm in College.
  • Denomination
    Protestant(Exploring Other Sects)
  • Name
    William

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  1. I'd like to mention that I've seen her cry over her guilt of these actions, and these actions are not all-in or dedicated. She's hadn't entered into sexual activity, she hadn't seen other people often, and the only way I know about her cheating is through her own personal confessions. She was raised by good Christian parents, and she has had a really hard time with a lot of things going on. It seems a little harsh to just say that she's toxic or that she's bad and move on because God would want me to. I've heard several people say that 'cheaters never change' and 'you should forget about her' but it's not as if she hasn't been trying to change. She's spent a lot of her own money to see me, she's actively made sacrifices for me, and she displays herself as a caring and affection human being, and her actions show that. I wouldn't say she's desperate for me or attention generally, because she's the one who broke up with me in the first place to 'avoid causing more harm.' To add to that note, she pointed out to me that she doesn't want to find anyone else, she just wants to fix herself. I've seen her flaws from the beginning, and very early on she confessed to having cheated once or twice before, and she knows the damage she can cause to others. She makes constant efforts to change, and connects with counsellors and family and good friends. That being said, it appears to me that I'm still stuck in a fork in the road. Is it really truly right to simply abandon her, when she has few friends, few family, and almost no options? Is it truly right to abandon her because she's continuously done me harm? We sin every day, but God always makes efforts to forgive us when we truly repent. So then, how can I ask God to forgive my sins if I cannot give everything I have to the person who has hurt me? Alternatively, if God wants me to find another way, how do I find it, and when and where would that right time be? That's effectively unknowable, obviously, but it doesn't make this situation of mine any less tedious or emotionally constrictive.
  2. I haven't posted here in a REALLY long time. I don't even go by 'Sir Will' on anything else anymore if I can help it. I was still struggling to find myself a partner when I was younger, but at that point I didn't really need someone in order to feel happy, I just wanted someone that was fun and I could really connect with, I suppose. From 2017 to 2019, I was in the first real relationship I've ever had. I put a lot of effort into it. I spent time with her, I took her places, I bought food she liked, we had dinners and lunches, saw movies, stayed home and played video games, and generally my life was really really nice. I felt complete, satisfied, doubtless, and happy. So much so, I felt myself having more time and closeness with my faith, since I saw the fruits of my labour. As I understand it, God wants men to experience good healthy stable relationships with women, and I felt proud that I had that, and I would do anything to do it. I kept making efforts to grow the relationship, whilst not being too clingy or forcing too much closeness. I always made her opinion important, and we made great efforts to communicate our problems. We had met online after she was running from an abusive sexual partner who was warping her idea about love and sex. She was religious at first also, like myself. As time went on, eventually I caught her cheating on me. It was something minor I think, like a flirt over the internet. I thought it made sense to give her another chance, it was Christian to forgive her and it was being a good man to let go of my pain for her sake. I felt honourable giving her another chance, especially since flirting is very basic cheating. Then, later on, she confessed to kissing someone and there was more flirting. It wasn't necessarily the same person, and this greatly upset me since I had made a great effort to explain the problems with cheating to her early on. At this stage, I went out of my way to help her, such as trying to cut down on people in her life that could be bad influences, and trying to promote for her to make a good friend group of nice men and women who weren't going to influence her to cheat. That plan failed, evidently. More and more, she continued to cheat, and she always tended to confess to it. I can't know if she cheated more outside of it, but her breaking down into tears or acting standoffish after cheating was a good sign that she had really done it. If she was simply uninterested in me, she had the full freedom to leave me, but I reckon it wasn't that simple. I kept forgiving her, and working with her to solve the solution, despite the pain and disconnect I felt from being cheated on so many times. I do not like being cheated on, and imagining my dream partner with someone else goes against what I believe and what makes me feel happy, secure, and satisfied. It also genuinely hurts, obviously. Eventually, I thought we had fixed it, since she had a really long running streak of not cheating, something like half a year. Unfortunately, there was a small distance between us for a short time as we struggled with things, and she confessed to cheating again. Not only that, but she had confessed to cheating during that streak of faithfulness. I really broke down, since all of my rebuilt faith and hope really tore apart at the end when I felt it was all for not. I told her that things had to change or I might have to leave her for my own sake. At the end of the day, I couldn't bring myself to leave her, and she elected to leave me on her own. From here, I began to doubt the validity of our relationship at all. Did she ever really love me? Was our communication *real*? Did we ever REALLY connect, or was she just using me? I felt used, betrayed, and broken. I'm not one to consider suicide, for a variety of reasons, but this would be one of the times in my life where I nearly did consider it for real. My faith in God was wavering too, as I felt that even though I acted through faith and love and forgiveness, it never paid off in the end, it never had any progress, and it blew up in my face. I know trials and tribulations are apart of every Christian's life, but God is supposed to give us a way out when times are tough, he's supposed to be the golden gate at the end. The land of the valley of death isn't supposed to end with tears and crying because you couldn't see God at the end. I'm still a Christian, I still have great reason for my faith, and I am making good efforts to repair my life. Though, my self-esteem, confidence with women, personal state, and my hope and inspiration for the future are all in tatters. I can't help but feel that having a partner to really connect with helps bring out the best in me, and I love to help bring out the best in them. Sharing life is something I really enjoy, and my hobbies tend to be maximised by having a partner. With Covid-19 and my somewhat anti-social personality with strangers, I can't help but consider it impossible to find someone faithful who's also a Christian at my age, who will appreciate me for my looks, my qualities, my interests, and my values. I've cut all communication off with my ex, since it is really draining to even begin to talk to her again. I feel bad because I want to be there to help her and support her still, even though she's not 'mine' and I'm not 'hers' anymore. but... Where do I go from here? Do I just trek it on my own and spend my youth alone? I want to spend the prime of my youth with a like-minded partner, not alone meandering around. I don't want to get child-giving age and not having established any of my dreams. Is there some online services I'm missing for Christians roughly my age? (19, give or take a few years). Even if I had those services, I like to play video games, and write, and spend time online. Am I really going to find a religious girl who likes those things in this day and age? Is it not worth it? I'm really struggling to know where to go or what to do, and I feel like I'm wasting time and spinning my wheels. If it helps, I'm in college right now, trying to figure out where I'm going with it. Thank you for any reply.
  3. You know, I'm not sure what is entirely not allowed and what is, and if this is okay, and if this is the right place to put it, but I'll do my best. Also, before I continue, I'd like to say that I'd also appreciate a Christian view on the world after WW2. What events changed Christianity and it's influence in the world as a result of WW2? What differences in nations and politics could have changed the christian world? As we know, the world we live in echoes the past we used to know. World War Two was the most brutal and catastrophic war, and was the only war, where the final sacrifice was to use 'cruel bombs'. I of course mean the nuclear bomb dropped on Japan, and in response to those bombs, the Emperor said... "Moreover, the enemy has begun to employ a new and most cruel bomb, the power of which to do damage is, indeed, incalculable, taking the toll of many innocent lives. Should we continue to fight, not only would it result in an ultimate collapse and obliteration of the Japanese nation, but also it would lead to the total extinction of human civilization." So, to put it simply, war changed a lot, and it was bad. War however was inevitable, and many were going on at the time, and it was simply the way things were done in the past, and perhaps, the way things are still done unfortunately. On the side of the Axis was Nazi Germany, the Empire of Japan, and the Kingdom of Italy as the main three, but in 1940 the Tripartite Act expanded this to include the Kingdom of Hungary, Kingdom of Romania, Slovak Republic, Kingdom of Bulgaria, and the Independent State of Croatia. On the side of the Allies, was the Soviet Union, United States, United Kingdom, and China mainly, but also many others including Canada, Australia, New Zealand, South Africa, Ethiopia, Brazil, Mexico and the Philippines. This does not include however, neutral states who were against the Axis, and exiled combatants who had their countries conquered. This war saw almost the entirety of the world fighting together against common enemies. My questions are as follows... 1. What if a fascist nation, let's say Italy under Mussolini, for this example, joined the Allies under terms that Italy would get to keep claims on lands like Yugoslavia or Ethiopia? 2. What if the attack on Pearl Harbor never happened, and the U.S. and many others never joined the war? 3. What if Poland was supported in it's defense against Nazi Germany by France and the Allies more immediately? Or, for that matter, what if the Soviet Union sided with theolish in their defense against an ideological enemy? 4. Suppose the battered and broken Allies and Axis had tired each other out to a large degree, but Italy was a neutral state, and stepped in after most of the wars were over to start conquering land? What if Italy under Mussolini conquered Europe, and eventually the world? This kind of theory is really often used by "What if the Axis won the war" or "What if Hitler ruled the world" scenarios, where it describes the brutal and harsh aftermath.. So, it's basically that, but only Italy. Mussolini apparently wanted to reform the Roman Empire. How would that even look? If you have any other theories about switching sides and whatnot, that'd be cool to hear about too. Anyways, those are just my ideas. I personally don't expect many to really answer to this, but, might as well jot down some interesting thoughts. Thanks for reading!
  4. You know, I'm not sure what is entirely not allowed and what is, and if this is okay, and if this is the right place to put it, but I'll do my best. Also, before I continue, I'd like to say that I'd also appreciate a Christian view on the world after WW2. What events changed Christianity and it's influence in the world as a result of WW2? What differences in nations and politics could have changed the christian world? As we know, the world we live in echoes the past we used to know. World War Two was the most brutal and catastrophic war, and was the only war, where the final sacrifice was to use 'cruel bombs'. I of course mean the nuclear bomb dropped on Japan, and in response to those bombs, the Emperor said... "Moreover, the enemy has begun to employ a new and most cruel bomb, the power of which to do damage is, indeed, incalculable, taking the toll of many innocent lives. Should we continue to fight, not only would it result in an ultimate collapse and obliteration of the Japanese nation, but also it would lead to the total extinction of human civilization." So, to put it simply, war changed a lot, and it was bad. War however was inevitable, and many were going on at the time, and it was simply the way things were done in the past, and perhaps, the way things are still done unfortunately. On the side of the Axis was Nazi Germany, the Empire of Japan, and the Kingdom of Italy as the main three, but in 1940 the Tripartite Act expanded this to include the Kingdom of Hungary, Kingdom of Romania, Slovak Republic, Kingdom of Bulgaria, and the Independent State of Croatia. On the side of the Allies, was the Soviet Union, United States, United Kingdom, and China mainly, but also many others including Canada, Australia, New Zealand, South Africa, Ethiopia, Brazil, Mexico and the Philippines. This does not include however, neutral states who were against the Axis, and exiled combatants who had their countries conquered. This war saw almost the entirety of the world fighting together against common enemies. My questions are as follows... 1. What if a fascist nation, let's say Italy under Mussolini, for this example, joined the Allies under terms that Italy would get to keep claims on lands like Yugoslavia or Ethiopia? 2. What if the attack on Pearl Harbor never happened, and the U.S. and many others never joined the war? 3. What if Poland was supported in it's defense against Nazi Germany by France and the Allies more immediately? Or, for that matter, what if the Soviet Union sided with the Polish in their defense against an ideological enemy? 4. Suppose the battered and broken Allies and Axis had tired each other out to a large degree, but Italy was a neutral state, and stepped in after most of the wars were over to start conquering land? What if Italy under Mussolini conquered Europe, and eventually the world? This kind of theory is really often used by "What if the Axis won the war" or "What if Hitler ruled the world" scenarios, where it describes the brutal and harsh aftermath.. So, it's basically that, but only Italy. Mussolini apparently wanted to reform the Roman Empire. How would that even look? If you have any other theories about switching sides and whatnot, that'd be cool to hear about too. Anyways, those are just my ideas. I personally don't expect many to really answer to this, but, might as well jot down some interesting thoughts. Thanks for reading!
  5. Though there is few on here that still are active, and less that are interested in my own affairs, I'd like you all to know that I appreciate each and everyone of you. The assistance has been tremendous and helped me through my trial by fire. Although I am not active, I am thankful to the answers and emotional assistance this site and the Christians here have given me. Thank you.

    This is not a farewell, but rather a reminder, though I am extremely inactive on this site, fair warning.

  6. Wulpez

    Girl Trouble

    Well, fortunately, I do have a bit of a lover now (we're getting there), and me and her /have/ set specific boundaries. Like, for example, after knowing her for a few weeks, a few days ago she gave me a kiss on the neck, and held hands with me. This week, I may or may not be kissed, and so forth. That doesn't however mean we're gonna cuddle next week, and do naughty things the week after that, but so far this is how the pacing is going. The pacing will slow down quickly, once we get to kissing, and no more than cuddling, since we're both teenagers, and obviously shouldn't be escalating things too quickly. To avoid discomfort, we both outlined what was and wasn't currently acceptable. She said no breasts, no groin, and no butt, which is pretty standard, and I agreed on her boundaries (and respected them). For my own boundaries, they are basically the same, except for the fact I don't have breasts. However, maybe a couple months, or a couple years in, we may change the boundaries and she might say 'okay, breasts are okay now' or 'thighs are okay now' and so on as a relationship develops and it's more stable. However I think it's good to focus on the less physical part of a relationship first, and get physical later. For example, you would begin by doing things together, playing games, drawing together, hobbies basically, that sort of thing. As time goes on and you spend more time and get more comfortable, tension releases and you get more relaxed and accepting of new things with that person. Anyways, just my rantings and thoughts! (Even though I'm in a relationship now, I won't remove this article, since, well, it has some lovely people making interesting discussions)
  7. Wulpez

    Girl Trouble

    Well, another problem is 'how good is good enough for you'? Lots of people either set too high an expectation, or way too low, and finding the middle ground can be difficult, sometimes exceedingly so. Then, once you know the person and found a connection, pacing and boundaries are immediately a problem. (Don't want to be cuddling with them the day you meet them likely, and so on).
  8. Unfortunately, I've had a lot of trouble with girls, and it always seems to blow up in my face (not literally, fortunately).. I can't tell if I'm just not attractive enough, I keep pushing people away, I'm not interesting enough, or it's just a run of 'bad luck'... \ What do you people think, and is anyone else experiencing this kind of 'bad luck'?
  9. Those all sound like pretty good dreams to have, and thank you! Christmas is my favorite time of the year as well! As far as kids go, I'd be worried about my girl, if she's popping out 30 kids, she probably isn't going to be very healthy down there anymore XD. Women who have a lot of pregnancies have a lot of other problems to go along with, and I wouldn't want to force kids upon my woman. But yeah, my ideal is at least 2 biological kids, hopefully one male one female, and at least one adopted kid. I've likely a long way to go before I am raising a family though, being sixteen and single. XD
  10. Hello! My name is Will, I suppose on here you can call me Sir Will, or William, or whatever along those lines. I myself have quite a few dreams and aspirations, things I want to be and things I want to do in life. I want to travel the world, I want to have a loving wife, and eventually kids, hopefully at least one adopted if my finances can afford it. I want an amazing and decent paying job that I greatly enjoy. I want to pursue my hobbies of Metalworking, Historical European Martial Arts(HEMA), and many others. I love to write, and hope to publish at least one book in the future. I want to learn how to ride a horse, and have one of my own that I can ride just about anytime. I want my own house that I don't have to pay rent on, with plenty of yard space, maybe an acre of free land. I'd absolutely love to own a pet fox, maybe even setup a breeding farm to sell them as pets, if I can make it legal. I want to make owning a fox legal in Oregon, where I live, and hopefully the rest of the United States. The occupation I want is to be a therapist or Councillor of some kind, but I'm not sure what field. Those are my dreams and aspirations, most of them at least, but what are your dreams and aspirations?
  11. I'm free to talk to you if you'd like.
  12. I can't wait for Christmas, the one time especially in the year where I can just love, be loved, and understand the better things in life.

  13. Today I had a good day. I woke up at a good time, which is new for a guy like me, since all week I've woken up anywhere between 7 in the afternoon, to 2 o clock in the morning, that's fixed now fortunately. I went to church with my mother, two different churches, the first one for worship, and the second one for a speech and presentation. After that we went to my favorite restaurant, 'Sizzler', and had a nice lunch, then went home, now my parents are watching the movie ROGUE ONE, star wars.

    1. Wulpez

      Wulpez

      Although in total, my week has been oh so terrible.

  14. I think my new favorite song is 'Sweet Caroline' sung by Neil Diamond, I could listen to it a hundred times! So subtly romantic, yet has a pleasurable and smooth tone.

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    2. noelKt5

      noelKt5

      Such a fantastic song!

    3. Buoyancy

      Buoyancy

      I know a guy who hates this song, so each time I think of it I think of him

      and his ten minute hate rant about Neil Diamond.

      So, basically every time I hear this song I giggle endlessly about the grown man who gripes about 70's pop.

    4. Bladesinger

      Bladesinger

      At 2015 summer camp, my team was called Sweet Caroline! Our motto was the chorus, of course! :P

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