These past two years have been extremely difficult for me. I won't go into detail about my testimony but I would like to address the fact that my brother who I was really close to was murdered two years ago, a year later my grandma (who was also my best friend and biggest supporter) was diagnosed with cancer passed away two weeks ago. I feel like I'm drowning and I can't breathe. My grandma loved Jesus with all her heart, and despite her circumstances she kept her faith that God would bring her through her illness. My grandma prayed for me everyday and night, and as though now I have no one praying for me. I feel lost, and robbed of love, because my grandma and brother were two people who selflessly loved me and always put how I felt before their own feelings. As my grandma lay in hospice three weeks ago she tried to comfort me as I was crying, even though she couldn't even eat, her whole body was swollen and the cancer was overtaking her body. I recently done something really stupid, and no I'm not using my difficult life as an excuse, but it would really mean a lot to me if I could have someone (it doesn't have to two, three, four or many) just one strong believer to pray for my deliverance from sinful ways, and to be guarded and protected.