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Tonight, I went to my friend and my ex boyfriend's going away party. I graudated from high school this year with both of them, and we are all leaving for college within the next month. I am about to go to a school three and a half hours away from where I live now, my friend Luke is going to a school two hours away, and my ex boyfriend Blake is moving out of the US to go to a school in Europe.

I had a really good time tonight with my friends, but it was also very hard, knowing that soon I would be leaving all of the people that I've became so close to in the past few years. We all were dancing and laughing at the party, but once I got out to the car and was coming home I just felt SO upset. I'm leaving for college in about a month, and I'm missing everyone already. I'm going to miss just being a kid, and the way things have been during high school. You never really feel like high school will end, but then suddenly...BAM, it's OVER!!! I feel an emptiness inside.

I have a lot of close friends, and we are all going in different directions. We'll be forced to grow apart, most likely. It was also akward with my ex boyfriend tonight, because we haven't ever officially broken up, but we've just sort of stopped dating this summer because we both know that we are going to different schools in totally different countries. It's so many hard things like that....It's so sad to see everyone leave, and to know that things will never really be the same again.

I can't believe that I'm not going to be living with my family anymore. I just feel like my childhood is over....I mean, now that I am going into college, I'm going to have a lot more responsibility...With being on my own and taking care of my own finances and everything. It's just a lot all at once.

My parents told me that I could go to a community college in my city and live at home this year instead leaving right away, and then transfer to a university next year if I want to have more time, but even though it's hard to leave home, I still feel that taking this step and going off to college is the right thing for me. My parents support me either way. I feel sorta bad about leaving them though. :( I took a bunch of dual credit classes at the community college while in high school, and I know that doing that helped to prepare me for full time college. I really do want to go and experience living at a university, and I love the school that I'm going to...it's just really hard right now. It's pretty scary.

It just hit me really hard tonight.....And it's been hitting me pretty hard these past weeks...I feel like my world has been turned upside down. Pretty much everything is about to change...I'm really going to miss everything and everybody a lot.

I'm very outgoing and I feel like I won't have any trouble making new friends in college. I'm pretty excited about starting this new part of my life. I also know that in time this will pass and things will be better, it just doesn't make it any easier for me right now!

Anyway, if you've actually read all of this, thank you! I am very interested to see if any of you guys can relate to me on this situation. Any advice would definitely be apprecitated too! :)

Your sister in Christ,

Ryan Madeline

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Well, I'm starting a new chapter in my life with me going to college this year as well. I can't connect with you as far as going to be 3 1/2 hrs. away from home cause I'm going to be about an hour and a half. Still, a pretty good distance. Away, I know how you feel about the high school thing. It didn't really hit me until now that I'm out of High school and all of my good friends are "left behind." But, the distance factor isn't going to stop me from staying in contact with everyone. I got a myspace...Facebook...this...cell phone...e-mail...lol! However, being there physically talking to them and communicating through a piece of technology is alot different. I do know one thing though: God has blessed me with every single individual person that is in my life. Since I know this, I MUST remember and take comfort in the fact that God will allow me to keep them in my life as long as He wants me too.

Anyway, now for the advice: Stay deep in your faith and follow God's Word through this new, exciting, and even tempting chapter of your life. If you stay close to Him all the other things will fall into place. Trust me. :D

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I can definitely relate too. :)

Admittedly it hasn't really hit me yet because in England we don't find out our A Level results - and therefore if we've gotten into the university of our choice - until the 20th of August, but I know that it will. My friends are the best that I've ever had, and the most time I've spent away from my family is about 2 weeks (my grandparents in particular had a big part in bringing me up and I know that I'm going to miss them terribly). Although I'll only be an hour and a half away from my older brother if I get into the uni if my nice. xd

Like you, I'm finding it a bit scary, but know that it's going to be the right choice for me. I also see it as a way to grow firm foundations for my faith as I will have more freedom to really explore Christianity, especially since my first choice uni has more chruches than where I live now and even has it's own Cathedral. I guess that it's similiar for people who have grown up as Christians as you can take charge of your faith a little more too :). Also, university is a good compromise between still having that support there and easing us into the "real world".

Also, like bro. bigheart 09 said, I'm going to take comfort in the fact that it's much easier to contact people now seeing as we have computers now and the mail is better. Plus, there's always the holidays to look forward to. Me and my friends have already made plans to all meet up at Christmas and share our experiences. :)

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Yea I'm the same way...leaving to go about 8 hrs away from where I live now. So I will know no one. Yes I will miss friends and family but I see this as a way to meet new people and challenge myself with life. I may be different though, I don't mind moving around- sort of nomadic lol. But anyway keep God with you always and it's hard to be lonely =).

~Isaiah

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Tonight, I went to my friend and my ex boyfriend's going away party. I graudated from high school this year with both of them, and we are all leaving for college within the next month. I am about to go to a school three and a half hours away from where I live now, my friend Luke is going to a school two hours away, and my ex boyfriend Blake is moving out of the US to go to a school in Europe.

I had a really good time tonight with my friends, but it was also very hard, knowing that soon I would be leaving all of the people that I've became so close to in the past few years. We all were dancing and laughing at the party, but once I got out to the car and was coming home I just felt SO upset. I'm leaving for college in about a month, and I'm missing everyone already. I'm going to miss just being a kid, and the way things have been during high school. You never really feel like high school will end, but then suddenly...BAM, it's OVER!!! I feel an emptiness inside.

I have a lot of close friends, and we are all going in different directions. We'll be forced to grow apart, most likely. It was also akward with my ex boyfriend tonight, because we haven't ever officially broken up, but we've just sort of stopped dating this summer because we both know that we are going to different schools in totally different countries. It's so many hard things like that....It's so sad to see everyone leave, and to know that things will never really be the same again.

I can't believe that I'm not going to be living with my family anymore. I just feel like my childhood is over....I mean, now that I am going into college, I'm going to have a lot more responsibility...With being on my own and taking care of my own finances and everything. It's just a lot all at once.

My parents told me that I could go to a community college in my city and live at home this year instead leaving right away, and then transfer to a university next year if I want to have more time, but even though it's hard to leave home, I still feel that taking this step and going off to college is the right thing for me. My parents support me either way. I feel sorta bad about leaving them though. :( I took a bunch of dual credit classes at the community college while in high school, and I know that doing that helped to prepare me for full time college. I really do want to go and experience living at a university, and I love the school that I'm going to...it's just really hard right now. It's pretty scary.

It just hit me really hard tonight.....And it's been hitting me pretty hard these past weeks...I feel like my world has been turned upside down. Pretty much everything is about to change...I'm really going to miss everything and everybody a lot.

I'm very outgoing and I feel like I won't have any trouble making new friends in college. I'm pretty excited about starting this new part of my life. I also know that in time this will pass and things will be better, it just doesn't make it any easier for me right now!

Anyway, if you've actually read all of this, thank you! I am very interested to see if any of you guys can relate to me on this situation. Any advice would definitely be apprecitated too! :)

Your sister in Christ,

Ryan Madeline[/b]

yeah new life is awesome i had troubl makin friends @first cz in my college th freshmen r put in2 smal groups of atmost 20 easier 2socialise n remember each otha u get2eat 2getha,hang out n stuff get almst th same rooms!..N u hav a 'mom n dad' plus groups get2mingl..Am a bit of an intruvert so i ddnt talk much bt its sorted..Nw i jus luv school

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