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I really can't take it anymore. I've been doing porn/masturbation since I was 10 (elementary school can be a devil of a place if you end up with the wrong crowd) and I've struggled ever since. I've continually tried to battle this myself and even with the help of my girlfriend, nothing has worked. Even after 40+ days, and an 8 month break somewhere in those years, I've never been able to fully rid myself of this.

Now its really getting critical. I'm turning 18 in 5 months which means the mental barrier of its not legal gets broken. I'll have been dating my girlfriend for 2 years on September 21 this year and would really like nothing to do with this by then. She is too precious to me to be put through any more of this. Its senior year at high school, its going to be tougher than ever and more temptations than ever cause I live in the dorm. I've prayed countless times about this and seeked council from several pastors. I've also tried various other methods of getting rid of this. Nothing has worked. I've also shouted at demons, and had a FREAKY (I mean FREAKY) dream where I came face to face with the devil himself concerning this. I now sleep with the light or the tv on now, even with my parents home.

I'm really desperate to get out of this giant hole of crap (excuse my language, but there's no other word that applies to this type of sin) because I absolutely HATE this sin, I HATE doing it, I HATE even thinking about it, and NO woman should be viewed like they are when watching such things. And also I'm tired of living for myself and only myself and trying to live for God. I've been trying for a year or so, but it hasn't worked well either. Can someone, anyone help me out? Please?

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I'm 17 now. I struggled with this from age 12 to 16. The way I managed to quit was that I prayed a lot, and I also started playing a very fun computer game. That way, every time I was going to go on the internet, I would instead open up the game as a distraction long enough to get myself away from the thought. I don't know how well this would work for anyone else, but it certainly helped me. I'll be praying for you, anyhow, as I know it's harder to quit than quitting drugs like cocaine.

-Ben

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Matthew 18:9 "And if your eye causes you to sin, gouge it out and throw it away. It's better to enter eternal life with only one eye than to have two eyes and be thrown into the fire of hell."

So castration and pluck out your eyes, I'm sure you'll be fine.

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You can pray about it. You can't hate on yourself for it. You have to accept God's grace, find an accountability partner.

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I feel very sorry about how much you are suffering in this. My partner and I are on very different pages to you and people like you so I don't think I will ever understand exactly how much you are suffering with pornography.

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Matthew 18:9 "And if your eye causes you to sin, gouge it out and throw it away. It's better to enter eternal life with only one eye than to have two eyes and be thrown into the fire of hell."

So castration and pluck out your eyes, I'm sure you'll be fine.

One of the first statement from the Council of Nicaea stated that Christians were not allowed to castrate themselves (link).

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One of the first statement from the Council of Nicaea stated that Christians were not allowed to castrate themselves (link).

Yes, because the Nicene Creed is the end all authority...smh. What it boils down to is your relationship with God. If you have a strong relationship with the Father, only He can tell you what you are doing is wrong.

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One of the first statement from the Council of Nicaea stated that Christians were not allowed to castrate themselves (link).

I don't even know how to respond to this... LOL. Pretty sure this is an idiom O_O

But seriously.

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Do not panic. The first thing you need to do is pinpoint what exactly is causing you to struggle. Is your girlfriend causing you to lust? Could it be in the music you listen to or the movies you watch? Do you have too much time on your hands? What things would you rather be doing during this time? Could you be doing it to avoid facing something else, and how might you go about facing this task? Think about this things. Stay in prayer. Do not let the enemy's lies get to you.

See if you can find an accountability partner if you don't already have one. Stay repentant, but if you fall, avoid self-condemnation. If all else fails, pull the plug and start going to the library. You might also block those sites by typing in a random password that you will never remember.

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Please don't plug. SCF is built upon hearsay and nothing more. They base their stuff off of shame, and if one 'falls' it is because he lacks faith. There are much better methods.

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They base their stuff off of shame, and if one 'falls' it is because he lacks faith. There are much better methods.

Regardless of your own views on homosexuality, if they are working from the position that it is sin, I don't see why this 'method' is exactly bad. If we look at scripture we can see that sin is man's lack of faith, and failure to make decisions to not sin. Everyone can decide to commit sin or not too. I understand you're coming from a perspective that homosexuality isn't sin, but I don't see how that would change the basic premise that people choose to commit sin.

Homosexuality aside, if I lust after a woman I could've mentally avoided that sin by averting my eyes. I failed, and sinned, because I lacked faith in the promise of God, that He will deliver me from all evil and all sin.

The fact that the sin that SCF is focusing on happens to be homosexuality doesn't change this concept, for those who accept that homosexuality is a sin.

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Chad, SCF focuses on more than just homosexuality. They target the demon of depression, the mutilators who cut, those who can't keep their hands above the belt, among others.

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Chad, SCF focuses on more than just homosexuality. They target the demon of depression, the mutilators who cut, those who can't keep their hands above the belt, among others.

That very well may be true but still I think we should let the OP form a opinion of the site on his own just because it did not help you doesn't mean its useless.

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Fluffy, I've been through the exact same thing.

I can honestly tell you that it's not impossible.

Pray, seek God, ask Him for help. Then, you have to stand up and down right deny yourself of watching porn or masturbating no matter how hard it is.

Go on a fast. A real fast. Pray while you fast. This helps alot to keep your flesh down.

There are demons who take advantage of you diong these things and will torment you constantly.

You have to stand up and do what is righteous. Trust me, it's hard at first, but it's not impossible.

Is there anything impossible for God? If you are with God, who can go against you?

If you are serious of walking for God, turn your things upside down and get rid of anything that has to do with nudity and anything that will get you to masturbate or watch porn. No matter how precious it is for you, get rid of it.

Don't give into sin. Don't let your flesh get you down. Keep your eyes open at all times. Be watchful and when you notice you are setting yourself up for masturbation or porn, stop right there. Do not continue. Pray that God uses His Holy Spirit to guide you and to warn you of evil.

Just stop.

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I agree Kevin, but unfortunately a lot of us aren't strong enough for that. And i know we should surrender totally to Jesus. I've tried everything but I kept failing.

But now I'm free through Setting Captives Free.

So Mark J listen, SCF might not have worked for you but they obviously have helped many many people (including myself!) to turn their lives around from sin and be free through Christ. So if they are freeing people from sin, why do you need to post negative messages on every post that comes up about them?

If its working for some, stop turning people off it!

As Jesus said, whoever is not against us, is on our side.

I got free through Setting Captives Free, i found it great and my mentor encouraging. If anyone is serious about being free, try it.

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