friend one: i have known him for my whole life. we went to church together. families know familes..etc. we hanged out at each others houses, went to summer day camps, all of that lingo. we started to "experiance others things" we started kissing, and doing things that, in gods eyes were wrong. he was using me for his own sexual pleasure, and i didnt have the nerve to stop him. this went on for three years, than he finally broke up with me over another girl. and to make things clear we DID NOT have sex. we just "touched" each other, if that makes sense.
we ended our relationship in 2003, and since than we have been great friends. until a couple of month ago. i have always like him ever since he broke up with him. but over the last few months, i have gotten angry with him, and finding reasons for us NOT to be friends. well, cause of that, we arent friends anymore. its been hard, and he wont give me the time of day anymore.
friend two: i have known since grade 7. we became instant friends. we always had fun together when we hung out. but everything turned 360 when we hit high school. we started getting into fights. my friend was having problems at home, and since she wasnt as christian there was little i could do because she didnt want me to "preach" and her, and religion wasnt her thing. she we fought alot. and after like 4 months, we started to hang out again, but that didnt last long. we found some way to get mad at eachother. this went on for the next three years of high school.
i can understand why i can be friends anymore. ill leave that as that.
ever since i was in "this situation" where i saw that god does work in peoples lives, i have been more accepting of it. ya sure i was a christian and called myself one, but i never walk the walk, or talk the talk. but now i have been praying more, and doing devotions, and living up to the bracelet.. P.U.S.H. i wrote in my blog a couple of days ago and i wrote something like this:
...hate this, that is everyone, being mad at me, and now i like dont have any friends. but what eve. i NEED to move on but how? I probably need to "P.U.S.H." more. to just let God handle it is really all i can do...[/b]
back to the topic now. what do you think that since all means? i keep losing friends. is god trying to tell me something about the friends i pick?
is he trying to draw me near, and the reason im not friends with those people anymore because is that they were in the way of me getting closer to him?
is for right now, i should try to think how him/her is going to bring God closer to me, and if i see that, i should pursue that friendship?
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