Hi everyone.
I really just wrote what came to my mind, so It's kinda chaotic.

Recently in my life it feels like I'm falling away from God. This is complicated but very often(almost all the time) I don't feel like I have a reletionship with Jesus.
I'm not too good at english but... yea.
I feel like the worst christian and person in the world. I don't have enohg energy to do anything at all. I don't dare to pray for people because it feels like i don't have enough faith and thereofre my prayer won't be answeard or something and then the people will think that everything is a lie.

I think( )I belive in Jesus and I want to love him. I'm SO FRUSTRATED for myself. I don't know exactly what I'm doing wrong I have been talking with lots of people and they have prayed for me but I't feel like it's just getting worse... I feel sad and bad all the time. It sometimes feels like I should stop my reletionship with people because It's problary better for them and that I maybe should stop calling myslef christian because of everything... Sometimes I feel like sucide. Sometimes... it really feels like the only thin that keeps me from it is Jesus. But ehen I feel like it's only because I belive in him and all the stuff and that it's maybe only for fear of hell and stuff.. I feel like I have done so much In my life that makes me from being a good person and a good christian.
And now on top of everything I'm gettting really stressful about my shcool and I have about 4 different things that It feels like I'm not gnna make in time..

PLEASE pray for me and let me know if you do it. I don't knoiw If I can take this any longer...
Thank you so much.

sorry for my very bad spelling an choice of words. I was not too happy when I wrote this and didn't chekced it before posted...

Hey Edge.

I understand how you feel. I've got a friend who's been through this, and I myself have been through something similar.
D'you have a bible? Read it, if you do.

God loves you. He wants a relationship with you. He sent his son Jesus for you.

I'll pray for you. PM me if you want to chat or anything.

Love

Ojay ..x..

Hi, a new one here. Came in through a search engine and as I browsed the forum I came upon your post.

Edge, I want you to know that you are not the only one going through this. Something stirred in me as I read your prayer request and really just some quite uncanny how very similar your situation is with mine.

I feel like I have lost touch too, and yes sometimes I do feel like I'm the worst Christian in the world. Especially since it's my final project time I feel that I worry about things very easily, I lose my temper easily, stress about stuff easily until I feel too emotionally and spiritually drained. There are some worldly things that have become more attractive to me than Jesus is and while I know that shouldn't be the way, I feel like it's so hard to let go. Nights come and go where I lay down in bed calculating the possibility of me going to hell if I died in my sleep. Sometimes it comes to the point where I become quite afraid of sleeping (although I end up sleeping anyway).

OrangeJuice is right... reading the bible is a good step to reconciling with God. I've been meaning to do it but I always push it aside and say I should settle my work first. My mother also says to pray and dedicate your day to God every morning after you wake up.

Remember the parable of the mustard seed... how one tiny seed of a faith can grow into a fertile tree. I will support you in prayer; let's grow together in this one.

Thank you both so very much! It means a lot to me!
I'm actually feeling better.

Fast update.

It's going in waves. One day I can be crying and another day I'm just sad and half deppresed.
It feels like whatever I do I do something wrong... Kinda often it feels like the world is a better place without me.
I feel like the worst man ever to show how it's like to be christian... I don't know what I should do...

Being a Christian isn't just about "doing the right thing" - it's about repenting when you do something wrong, and the fact that you feel something is wrong is a good sign.
I reccommend remembering God whenever you have a spare minute in the day and what He would do in a certain situation. Try not to get caught up in moments and get away from what God wants for you. And yes, reading the Bible is how we get to know God better.
I know what it's like for your emotions to be all over the place, but God is eternal and steadfast, and when we die, He will clean our hearts completely, and we will be at peace with Him. Remember that time is coming! So even if you do something horrible, God still loves you! Of course this isn't an excuse to be horrible because we should strive to please God and live as we will in the next life. But take comfort in it - God really does love you. We are blessed with a Lord who is merciful and kind, and in the end He will save you. Have faith!

I'm praying for you!

Hey there, I'll be praying for you. I know how you are feeling.
God bless.

I'm praying. Feel free to PM me if you want to talk.